I’d never thought about this idea that our soul has a name until one day, I pulled a card in my oracle deck, “The secret language of light” by Denise Jarvie. The card’s title is soul name. It reads that we all have a soul name. I did the guided meditation on the card just before going to bed one night and fell asleep curious about myself because of what came through the meditation.
In the meditation, she leads the reader to the door of their heart, and their soul’s name is just above it. I stepped forward and came to the door of my heart. Above the door, I read three words. I did see my soul name, but was that really me? The first two names are Angelica Priestess, and the third is a name that I didn’t know how could be my name. My curiosity lingered in the morning, and I decided to look up the third name. I came across someone from the 1700s. She wrote books and helped children. I was startled because this woman’s life sounded very similar to one of the past lives I remembered. I’m not sure this was a life I’ve lived, but it could be. I want to do a hypnosis session to get more evidence for it.
Over the next couple of weeks, I pondered my past life regressions and visions of other lives I’ve lived. All the while, my business was falling apart, and there was nothing I could do about it. It was an emotionally disturbing time, but my soul wanted me to know more about who I am. Our souls know that we are more extensive and profound and hold more truth than our life circumstances. Everything is happening for us. So when I’m in the receiving mode of all that life has to give me, I listen to whatever messages come my way and see the bigger picture of what is unfolding.
I went to the gym one morning. It was one of my last gym sessions since I was getting ready to move out of my house and go to Maui. It was early morning, so the gym was nice and quiet. I was going to work out, but since the sauna and hot tubs seemed so peaceful and had no one in them, I decided to cold-hot plunge for a while. This was a great stress relief. Working out relieves stress, but hot-cold plunging is a much more mentally soothing way to get stress to leave the body.
After sitting in the sauna for a while, I started praying and meditating, asking for healing guidance in uncertain times. My prayer felt like I was unloading all my worries to my heavenly Father and Mother. I began contemplating my past life again. Earlier that morning, I had listened to a tarot reading on youtube about past lives, and it was spot on with my thoughts when trying to understand this past life. I continued in prayer, hoping I would gain some understanding of everything going on in my life. Through my prayers and emotional purging, I found myself in the cold shower calling out to my soul and spirit team the words, who am I? I thought for a second; I hadn’t asked myself that question in a long time. Then, a scene started coming into my third-eye view, and it was Jesus. He had a set of keys in his hand and handed them to me. I thought I’m about to unlock the answer to the question I just asked. I saw the door to my heart that I had visited during the soul-name meditation. I opened the door and went inside my universe. There were multiple stars representing different lives I’ve lived. I noticed a brighter light towards the center. As I got closer, I saw it was a bright flame. It was me, my eternal soul! I thought I am made of fire! It was an awe-inspiring moment to witness my eternal flame. The creative force of me! I felt like dancing. I am pure creative energy that is capable of anything. There were no blockages or cages around it. It was beautiful and free and supported by a white petal stool. It floated above, in the universe of my heart. It was a potent encounter with my life force energy of pure source. It felt holy, pure, and bright.
This vision felt like an omen of self-realization and of the significant changes taking place in my life this year that are bringing me back to my true nature. It was excellent, too, that this magical moment happened after a year of fitness at the gym and was one of my last times there.
Three and a half months later after the amazing encounter with my heart flame, I’m on my way to Texas to visit my sister, and I’m a little drained, depleted of nutrition and sleep, and not so sure how I feel about my sister living in Texas. She used to live in California. It would be nice to visit her there because that is where all my friends and family are. But, the truth is this was more than a visit. I exhausted my funds from traveling and needed to ground down for a moment and create some income. All my possessions were in the car, so this trip felt like a move, and I knew I did not want to move to Texas!
It was four o clock in the morning, and I finally made it to Texas. I still had six more hours to go, and my moon cycle was coming on. I had slept in the car for only four hours that night and felt exceptionally achy. On the trip, I visited a friend in flagstaff, and fortunately, I asked her for some cannabis. I rarely smoke, but sometimes it’s the perfect thing for road trips. I was stoked that I had something to relieve my body from its aches. The road was a dark two-lane highway, and it had nothing around as far as my eyes could see for a long time, except for the occasional intruding semi that would pass by. I felt a similarity between myself and the dark vast sky around me because of the ungrounding life circumstances I was in. I was traveling through the void in my internal and external world. I turned on Porangui, and the prayer of protection song came on. I gave gratitude for the moment I was experiencing. I wanted to get out of my head and connect to my heart, so I placed a hand on my heart and started the heart breathwork I created. I see my nose and mouth as the snout of a jaguar, and I take deep breaths in and out of the center of my heart. The nose represents power, and when I do this, I feel connected to the power of who I am. That I Am, is in the center of my heart.
The cannabis toke had started to do its work, and I began to see my heart space, and similar to the stars in the sky, I could see the stars in the universe of my heart. I drew closer to the center where my eternal flame is, and as I approached, I saw Kuan yin standing guarding the space of my eternal flame with her love. She was blessing my eternal flame with her passion! I could not believe it. I was like, You’re here! So happy about witnessing her presence, we embraced. As she wraps her arms around me, she lifts me, and we fly together into the sacred universe space of my heart. She points out these different colored sections in my heart’s sky. She points out one red area. She says this is your life. Then we see a yellow section she says this is your existence. She points at a purple area; she says this is your knowledge. Then she told me at a blue section that this is your truth; it needs to shine brighter.
She holds me, and we fly around my heart’s beautiful space. The thought came to me that not everyone would let her into their heart, and I thanked her for finding her way to mine. She said It wasn’t that hard! She is so, so sweet! She holds my heart flame with her infinite love and raises my vibration. I kneel before her and give offerings and thanksgiving for this blessed moment with her. I see that her infinite love is carried forth in all spaces as when I invoke her in my prayer with the lotus mudra and pray that infinite love is found throughout all time and space. Coming back into awareness of my physical body, I notice the flame of my heart grow brighter and more extensive. It starts to consume my entire being and becomes like a slow-spinning torus vortex spiraling out from within and expanding out and around my body about six feet in diameter. A sacred geometry pattern forms, within the spaces of the pattern, are large raindrop shapes with miniature Kuan Yins inside them! Her infinite love blossoms into all space within and around me! I am shocked and feel forever blessed. I am filled with the awareness that infinite loving compassion exists within all parts of my being and everywhere! The sacred geometry pattern surrounding my heart flame extends out further and further, and the raindrops that held Kuan Yin start to multiply and become smaller and smaller as I see her begin to inhabit all spaces. I uphold her space of infinite love and compassion and pay respects to every space on this earth because endless love and compassion dwells there, and it dwells within me.
The soul name card had given me an image of the doorway of my heart. This doorway represented the beginning of so much awakening in my life. Doors are like portals of the callings of our life; if we are curious, we must enter. Questions like what is my soul’s name, and who am I, honor our soul’s desire to be heard. When pondering these questions deeply, we can come to know ourselves and be free of the lies that kept us unknowing. I am so thankful for the ascended Masters in my life who hears my prayers and are helping me walk through doorways to discover the paths of reality I must go down to learn how to be me. Bless you, Holy Mother and Father! And Bless you, Goddess Kuan Yin, for teaching me to stand in my authentic truth.
Love is the eternal flame of all and is inside each one of us. In loving awareness of who we are, we dwell in a sacred space that generates divinity. Kuan Yin wanted me to grasp who I am and who we all are and to see that her infinite loving compassion is everywhere and everywhere I go deserves respect, for the truth of love’s work is there to be found.
We are from the source of all life, which dwells in our hearts. It is pure love. We are pure love. When we remember that this is who we are, we know freedom and unity are our very nature to the core of our beings.