Nurturing myself with loving acceptance opens my heart to healing in every moment.
After a night of social activity, I woke up contemplating my interactions with friends and acquaintances. Feeling a little critical of myself for not having displayed more candor, my vibes were running low, and the grey weather seemed to add to them. I was grateful for the fun my friends and I had together but the low vibes of self-criticism continued to stay around.
What I needed was some self-care.
I decided to go for some coffee to perk me up and a walk at our local marshlands. I stopped in at the store to grab the coffee and ran into a friend that I don’t connect with often. She’s a remarkable woman that I admire for her success. We chatted for a minute, she said she was being nosy and then went straight into asking me a personal question. I surprisingly did not hold back my very honest and raw answer as she seemed to pull it right out of me. This left me feeling very vulnerable. She was kind and encouraged me to be myself. When I walked out to the car all the feelings from my morning and well my recent years of experiencing loneliness that were in my heart were cracked open from my friends question. The feelings welled up inside of me and tears started to flow.
I felt so open.
The feelings of sadness were raw and fresh like new pains stemming from recent experiences. It was intense. The groundwork for this cracking open had already begun this morning from the moment I woke up.
Now it was time to accept it and delve into it.
I knew going to the marsh was going to be the best thing for me to help me calm down, so I headed there as planned. When I arrived I sat for a moment catching my breath, tried to release tension, and come into a state of calmness enough to gather focus for walking the trail. As I started walking I held back the tears and began to take in the beauty that was around me.
I felt connected to the nature I was experiencing. It was like the strong feelings and emotions in my body connected us even more. After about five minutes of walking I heard my spirit guide say, “Run”.
I felt the push to do it. With trust that my guide knew what was best for me I began running. I realized my thinking and energy were clearing some. My guides told me to keep going and by their words my desire grew to turn the moment into a full-on running exercise, allowing for more freedom in my energy by releasing any attachments to the stories of why all this sadness was coming up for me.
It began to feel like I was being carried by the wind.
I ran in a completely different direction than I usually take at the marsh and ended up down a narrow trail that went out into the bay with the marshlands on either side. I came to this spot that had a big flat rock. It looked like the perfect seat for meditation. I decided to sit and began relaxing. I had my headphones in. They were playing healing medicine songs from musicians such as Ajeet kaur, Peia, Marry Isis, and Carrie Tree. The music was magically in sync with my feelings and thoughts and guided my meditation. I noticed I was sitting in the exact spot that an old railroad bridge used to be.
I took a picture before I got up of my foot hanging off the rock to remind me of how I am a bridge, a bridge between worlds and different types of people, which has been shown to me through visions and teachings about myself.
During my meditation I reminded myself of how I need to be the bridge I am. This process of building the bridge that I am takes sacrificing myself by moving through fear and moving into action based on love. During this moment Ajeet Kaur began to sing a song about the Divine Feminine and the Divine Masculine. She asked all the masculine to sing and for all the women to receive them. This is where a big part of my healing happened. This is exactly what my heart needed to heal and this was a part of my bridge building.
As the music played Beloved Jesus and Mary Magdalene appeared before me shrouded in gold.
Their presence was emanating through me clearing away all grief and sorrow. They were healing me and bringing balance to my heart and brain hemispheres. At the same time this was happening Arch angel Metatron sat behind me and was holding me. He was huge and goldish yellow, my whole body felt held and warm. Now I was filled up with tears of healing and joy. I gave so much gratitude for their presence in my life. They love us all so much and want us to heal this gap between the feminine and masculine by receiving each other with unconditional love.
I felt my meditation was coming to a close so with gratitude for this sacred moment I got up from the rock and slowly began down the trail feeling again as though the wind was carrying me.
Up ahead on the trail just fifteen feet in front of me I noticed a large feather laying lightly bottom side up on the middle of the path.
I was amazed at how fresh it looked like it had just fallen. Then I heard, ” It is a gift”. As I picked it up I was confounded and couldn’t believe I was receiving another gift after that amazing meditation. I kept walking and noticed up ahead another feather laying exactly like the first feather in the middle of the path, bottom side up but pointing in the opposite direction and slightly smaller. I held them together observing and thinking of the Divine Masculine and the Divine Feminine.
It felt like a confirmation of my meditation on healing the masculine and feminine within myself and the world.
I continued down the trail in reverence of this magical moment. As I got closer to the car two big turkey vultures began to fly close to me.
They glided slow enough to where I could get a good look at the underside of their wings. I was amazed! They looked just like the feathers gifted to me. They were a pair, banding together and walking side by side along the edge of the water.
The music in my headphones was singing, “raise into love, raise into love.” Knowing that everything is a part of my healing, I felt so loved, blessed, and guided. The sad experiences and the reflection of them that brought me sorrow opened up the doorway for me to receive this beautiful miracle of healing.
This morning I would never forget for it brought me into the presence of beloved Jesus Christ and Mary Magdalene and with them came so many gifts of understanding my personal growth and what I needed to do as well as release and heal.
I did not want to leave but it was time for me to continue with the rest of my day. I got in my car and headed back home as I was driving I noticed a bumper sticker with two feathers. I was so blessed to receive this confirmation of my experience felt like my spirit guides wanted me to take in the significance of the gift I was given.
Soon after that, I noticed a van on the side of the road with two enormous condors painted on the side of the van! I could not believe it! I knew to grasp the depth of this blessing I needed to do more research on feathers.
When I got home I read an article about feathers.
I was reminded of their power to heal and cleanse the aura and physical body as well as their ability to relieve mental chatter.
These two feathers were gifts to aid me in my physical healing as well as clearing my light body and blessing others with the same.
Every day I work with them and can feel old energy moving out of my aura. Their clearing effect on me leaves me feeling lighter and happier. Sadness tends to leave a dense heaviness in our aura which can add to the feeling even more. Our emotions are the link of the cycle from the energy body to the physical body. The energy of negative emotions can get stuck in our “Bodies” no matter how hard we try to release them and they, in turn, feed thoughts and feelings repeatedly.
The gift of the feathers is to pull and clear away the residue of lower emotions. Putting an end to the cycle of the lower energies feeding the negative feelings in the physical body.
These beautiful and sacred gifts from the spirit world are helping me ascend to a lighter and more free spirit. As I am writing this I remember that my ancestors asked me to create more rituals in my life by honoring them with gratitude and ceremony. I stepped away from writing this post because I knew I needed to give more thanks and recognition for the amazing gifts of these feathers. My ancestors burnt cedar before prayer so I grabbed some from my hearth hoping that this would honor them and give them peace. I took the feathers off my alter and went outside to the center of my front yard. I was drawn to this spot because of a recent meditation I had there on the eclipse. I knew the space held some earth power.
I sat down and began to burn the cedar and held the feathers high in the air admiring them and blessing them. I then began to thank my ancestors for this life, for all things, and for the magical gift of the feathers.
The wind was blowing and I could feel their presence. I knew in my soul my ancestors were happy and so were my feathers. I came back in and placed the feathers on the alter. Later that night before bed the feathers caught my attention, their energy was strong and radiant.
Seeing this, I realized the prayer activated them even more and cleared them from previous uses of clearing others’ and my auras. This was another lesson in taking care of the gifts we are given.
Blessing what we want and have with high positive energy such as joy and gratitude activates those objects or situations with more life force energy.
It is such an honor to share this story with you. Great spirit, nature, our angels, and guides consistently work on our behalf to bring us the answers we need, the gifts of healing, and the teachings to better our lives. It was the cracking open and delving into the pain and the releasing of it all in surrender to the wind, that helped me to receive this healing. I hope we find it a little easier next time we are nature to let go of our worries and receive the magical force of creation working miracles in our lives.