Stepping into The unknown facilitates an opening of the soul, becoming more receptive to the energies of the moon that can help bring about healing.
Did you know that learning everything about your moon’s astrology can give you deep insight into why your emotions are the way they are? The moon’s placement at birth represents how we felt at birth. It is a blueprint of our subconscious emotional patterns throughout our lives.
I learned recently about the Sabian symbol and the inside degrees of my moon’s placement at birth. This degree says, that I feel caught in this fate of fixing the past, being stuck in limbo, learning when to stop and when to go, the power of surrender, and experiencing split-second timing. Learning this was like shining a spotlight on this underlying energy of uneasiness I experienced a lot in my life. I’ve noticed this energy before but identifying it now as a subconscious pattern from a feeling I’ve had since birth has awakened me to why I feel uneasiness and how uncertainty will catapult me into this feeling.
So often, my life has been uncertain because I tend to leave things up to which direction the wind will blow with prayers for guidance, forcing me to learn through experience in conscious and sometimes unconscious ways. Even in these uncertain experiences, I’ve held the faith that one day my dreams will come true.
I’m realizing now how uncertainty leads to growth. It allows the Goddess to move in our lives and show our hearts’ true nature.
It’s a matter of being present and having the desire to dive deep within and ask ourselves questions that we need to answer honestly.
I know this to be certain that if these questions are asked daily, they will give way to gems of sacred knowledge.
Your soul will start operating in whatever ways you allow it to bring you these gems of truth. It’s a matter of being open to the pain, being open to the uncertainty, and genuinely trusting that what your soul has to deliver will bring you guidance, understanding, and, ultimately, freedom from delusional concepts.
This revelation of my subconscious emotions shows me how much I’ve been trying to track forward with thoughts and feelings based on old stories. This feeling of trying to save myself comes from the lives I’ve suffered from persecution.
Everything, all our stories, and experiences are in our DNA, and we bring them into every life we have lived until; eventually, we decide to learn and grow from them and rewrite our story.
From what I’m learning now, we can remember our past with the light of forgiveness to change it and remember it in a new way. This new story of the past can be a story of healing, growth, and a foundational moment of change in our lives.
Many of my old stories of pain and persecution from past lives have been healed due to the illumination of my moon’s guiding light that brings revelation, the release of pint up energy, and ultimately an experience of some kind that had a significant impact of healing.
It is a process that I’m starting to understand of death and rebirth. Part of my moon’s degrees represents divine intervention of salvation from lost and abandoned places.
The moon will take you deep into ancient parts of yourself that need to heal if you let her.
During one of my recent Ayahuasca ceremonies, I saw myself hanging from an old tree in a desert. My work was condemned heretical, so I was hung to die and left alone. I saw my soul leave my hanging body, and because I felt abandoned, it withered in the dust instead of ascending. When having this vision during my ayahuasca ceremony, I knew this to be an opportunity to recover this part of my soul. So I did.
And with all the love and power of my heart, I spoke to this part of my soul buried in the dust by the tree that I hung in and called her up to me.
She hesitated at first, not seeing that I was herself from a higher place. I told her that there is more life to live, that the time is now to receive love and be free, and that she will be accepted. I felt my soul return to me. When I got home after the ceremony, I pulled a card out of one of the Alana Fairchild oracle decks @Alanafairchil.com, which taught me that during the process of soul retrieval, you will begin to experience an old part of yourself and all the talents and character traits that come with that part of yourself.
It is good to be loving and gentle with this new part of yourself that lived a different life so that you can integrate and activate all parts of yourself to function cohesively and in harmony. However, when going through this integration process, there can also be hurt, and pain that arises from that lost life recovered. So it’s essential to love and nurture yourself and to tell yourself you are safe. This is healing.
When working with the moon’s energy, we can spend some time in the deep suppressed lower emotions and sometimes act out from that place, causing experiences that may be unpleasant.
Staying conscious of how the moon operates in your life can help you love yourself through negative impulses. Knowing why you feel a certain way and forgiving yourself and others can help you not get stuck in the deep shadows for too long. It is important to let the emotions be felt but then released in some sort. Everybody has their different ways of releasing. Creative expression is a great way. Prayer is my go-to and is what often works for me.
Telling Spirit my concerns and laying them on the altar of transformation, I leave the problem or the energy and ask to be cleansed in love and joy.
Then, it’s just a matter of complete trust and walking away from the worries, knowing that my prayers are answered. Emotions shape our lives, and if I’m always trying to save myself and fight the victim mentality, then that is the reality I will continue to create.
The moon works in mysterious ways. She is saying, let your dark side teach you and ultimately save you. And when that salvation and healing comes, be free from the past, be free from the fear, and be free from the emotions of it all.
Freedom for me has looked like living my new life entirely differently. Everything I had built around me was based on an unhealed inner child. I decided to move out of my home, sell all my possessions, and move to Maui for a temporary stay. I had barely any money and wasn’t sure where I would stay. Everything was a new experience for me, and this new life of freedom came with a lot of uncertainty.
In her book The Way of the Spiritual Entrepreneur, Pauline Nguyen writes, “One of life’s greatest Joys is that our freedom is determined by the degree to which we can rest in the unknown.”
Reading this was so therapeutic for me. The freedom I desire is my growth edge of feeling inner peace in the unknown. The blessed sacred moon has shown me why I have felt so many intense emotions in the unknown, and my Divine Mother is helping me release the old stories and to live every new experience in my heart’s true nature, allowing the innocent child in me to wonder, laugh, and play. It has been a matter of letting go, paying attention, and receiving.
When working with the moon’s energy, it’s important to remember that she is reflecting the sun’s light. We all have our own personal sun and moon within us. The sun represents your true soul self.
When we want to get in touch with our true soul self, it is time for some much-needed sunlight. I thank Maui for this and am so grateful for the sunlit meditations I experienced on the island.
When I immersed myself in the island’s nature, she relieved my tension and pulled forth my desires from my soul.
After a morning exercise on the beach, I went for a walk along the water. My soul, without any preplanned thought of it, started praying and asking the angels for their cleansing and healing presence. I heard my guides and angles say keep opening, keep expanding, and keep listening. I continued walking and felt my soul light up with the sun. I pictured all my chakras opening up to the sun and the light of my central sun in my solar plexus giving light to all my chakras.
A surge of golden light entered my heart chakra and pushed dark, stagnant, and heavy energy out through my back. My walk had turned into a walking meditation. It was lovely and healing.
My personal planets are my guiding light. The angels of nature and my beloved Mother Goddess are the winds beneath my wings!
Staying in our central truth and the light of our beings, we will align with our destinies, and anything in the way will clear because love never fails.
When we love and appreciate all the guidance that is occurring in and around us through nature, people, etc., we love and appreciate ourselves. Love will retrieve lost parts of our souls, bring us back into wholeness, and allow us to rest in the unknown.
This week there is a partial Lunar Eclipse in Scorpio on October 25th. It is a great time to dive deep into the subconscious and ask ourselves what stories we have told ourselves that have built up walls around our hearts and how we can detach from them.